And The Secret Is...
Well, today was my 43rd birthday. I honestly did think that when I hit 42 I might find an inkling of what the meaning of life was, but over the course of the year I did not find anything of the sort. Life has been pretty much more of the same. I'm sure though, that being 42 has nothing to do with finding the meaning, I just thought being 42 might boost my chances a little...maybe. Unless the meaning is love and the pursuit of what makes me happy then I have found nothing and I know nothing of what life is about. I guess it's a question that will continue to drive me mad until my dying day.
My birthday being a Thursday this year, I fully expected no one to be free to visit or hang out or whatever but I was still disappointed that no one did even though I had the tiniest spark of hope that someone might. I've spent the day alone listening to music, cleaning, playing Destiny 2, and eating. What was kind of a shock was that Alex's mother didn't text me at all. I guess she's figured out, finally, that I'm pretty pissed about the house situation. But it's kind of whatever honestly. I'm apparently just going to have to figure things out on my own without her help so I might as well start now, right?
Another thing about this year...everyone always tells me that I'm so nice, or handsome, or sexy, or funny, and so on and so on. If that's the case then why am I STILL single? Why? I know part of it is me and my stubbornness and unwillingness to just settle for whoever comes along and my use to being alone so much that what ever poor bastard decides to try to be my husband is going to have to be so fucking amazing that it'll be nearly impossible to reach that pedestal.
I started the year getting rid of things. Basically Marie Kondo-ing the shit out of my house and getting rid of everything that serves me no purpose anymore. Trading in games to RedFox, selling Magic cards to Card Kingdom, selling D&D books on eBay, throwing out old clothes. Getting rid of all of my Magic cards felt good and was easy to do, but getting rid of my Dungeons and Dragons 3.0/3.5 books has been somewhat gut wrenching even though my plan is to replace them all with digital copies; PDFs from DriveThruRPG or where ever else I can get them. Trading in games I didn't like or want anymore to RedFox was good for my overall mental health and my backlog and even helped me get an OLED Switch relatively easy.
I also started out the year by not playing Destiny 2 at all. I took a very long break from it and used lore videos on YouTube to keep up with what was going on inn game and wasn't really planning on coming back until either Lightfall or The Final Shape was released but came back early when King's Fall made it's glorious transition to Destiny 2. When that happened, I was 20 games away from finishing 52 for the year and now at the end of September I'm still stuck at 32 games and probably won't get too many more completions in before the year is over. I've seen it happen more than once in the Discord server where someone for consecutive years won't hit the goal but then year after year after that they make it consistently. Maybe last year and this year are my ramp up years to hitting 52 next year and every year after.
Here’s to the year that was 42 and to the year that 43 brings…